i am lame

I'd love to work with animals

2010-08-29T21:55:00.000-07:00

I find it so difficult to work with people. It's probably a better idea to work with animals. At least they don't give you so much unnecessary trouble. Is there something wrong with me? Is there something wrong with the way I handle things? The problem could be myself. I don't know. I don't even know what I am talking about.

2010-06-09T08:57:00.001-07:00

I hate being a substitute. I'm not a substitute OK!

Handicapped

2010-05-31T17:52:00.000-07:00

Here I am, sitting in front of the monitor in my cubicle, thinking whether i should go for breakfast. HaHaha...

This morning, when I was trying to close my car's door, the keychain was stuck in between, and the 'boy' now is handicapped- hand-less and leg-less...

Prior to that incident, I've made a phone call which took me a lot of courage, however, in the end I was totally rejected...

I guess, God is trying to tell me to let go... Easier said than done, I know it's my choice to not let go, but I know eventually I'll have to...

Dear Father,
Please give me the wisdom and strength to go through this. It's probably one of the hardest thing I've done in my whole entire life, but I know with your guidance I'd be able to make it.

2010-02-20T00:18:00.000-08:00

When a same mistake has been repeated over and over again, you'll reach a point where you don't feel guilty about it anymore. You would not know whether what you're doing is wrong or right (actually you do know it's wrong), and it scares you when you're not feeling guilty about commiting the 'crime'- like how you used to feel.

For you, on Valentine's Day

2010-02-14T01:02:00.000-08:00

Here I am playing with those memories again, and just when I thought time had set me free, those thoughts of you keep taunting me.
Holding you, a feeling I never outgrew, though each and every part of me has tried.
Only you can fill that space inside- so there's no sense pretending, my heart it's not mending.

Just when I thought I was over you, and just when I thought I could stand on my own,
Oh, baby those memories come crashing through- and I just can't go on without you.
On my own I've tried to make the best of it alone- I've done everything I can to ease the pain but only you can stop the rain...

I just can't live without you, I miss everything about you...

I hate this part

2010-02-07T09:12:00.000-08:00

Do you know someone- whom you know you cannot meet, because once you met him, you just can't stop thinking about him?

I know someone who gives me that kind of feeling. And I hate this feeling.

Fugly me

2010-02-03T08:09:00.000-08:00

I am pretty sure we all had times when everything that could go wrong, went wrong. Having insomnia lately- which is really not 'my disease' (because I'm truly a pig). A colleague of mine actually started calling me "zombie", ouch...

Work is beginning to suck lately- as much as I tried to stay/pretend positive, I guess there is a limitation somehow... Given a new task is challenging, unfortunately it turns out to be something which I stress about a lot. The new task makes me feel incompetent, inefficient, ineffective, incapable etc etc. Which I think is wrong- given my position as a trainee, to be given an opportunity like this, I am considered lucky. Besides, I am also given the chance to learn from a very experienced senior, which is supposed to be motivating but it turns out to be the opposite... and I have no idea whether it is right to feel this way... Sigh. enough of complaining.

And I dislike one particular colleague! o.O"

And I just realised that putting too much make up on makes u look really, really ugly and scary... :(

And I'm disgusted with myself. Urgh.

Wedding dinner: A cartoon

2010-01-31T06:43:00.000-08:00

Someone was extremely bored while waiting for a wedding dinner to start, so he begin texting me...

MMS # 1: "Gift from the hosts..."

MMS # 2: "Gift for my friend and I- combined."

MMS # 3: "Hahah... I guess I'm too free..."

MMS # 4: "New member- Stole another gift from the empty seat beside us."

For some odd reason, I find it adorable. I miss him.

2010-01-30T08:59:00.000-08:00

I miss...

2010-01-30T08:46:00.001-08:00

Truthfully, I miss my unscarred leg. It has been a month, and the scar is still visible. Some might tell me that it is not visible (which I know is untrue), but I still need some time to accept a new "tattoo" on my leg. Sigh. I never knew how much this will impact me. I thought I'll be OK with it but somehow, it lowers my self-esteem. Hate to admit something my colleague once told me- "For a girl to have a scar on your leg... It must have impacted you a lot, right?"

OK, don't get me wrong. I don't mean to blame anyone, I understand it's merely an accident. I just feel like being honest with my own feeling. Acting like you don't give a damn about it when others ask, it ain't easy. But I guess for not, there is nothing I can do besides not giving a damn about what others might think/say, and wear short skirt as usual.

Mei Lee is hot with her scarred leg...... Not.

A new life

2010-01-10T07:00:00.000-08:00

Today, I took the first step.

Wore the usual mask, greeted everyone in the room.

Left my mask outside the room, and cried out loud.

New resolution.

New desire.

Peace of mind.

No worries, leave everything to Him.

A first step to a long journey.

I will continue.

don't ask me why...

2009-12-25T07:26:00.000-08:00

Home Alone- Christmas Special

2009-12-25T06:01:00.000-08:00

It has been such a long time since I've last celebrated Christmas... alone.
I think it has been at least 6 years.
To be more exact, I did not celebrate Christmas at all this year.
Somehow, the feeling is quite different, in the sense that I'm able to avoid the Christmas crowd, paying extra for some not delicious meal, making reservation in advance etc.

Fine, I'm in denial. It's miserable going through Christmas this way.

But I guess, it's a pretty good test for me. At least I managed to do some laundry, manja with mummy, watch some Christmas special TV show. Hahaha...

Made all the arrangements before Christmas- hang out with the girls, BBQ, Christmas musical. In the end, sigh...

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!! Just wanna complain a bit, since everyone is out and I'm home alone. Aih.

2009-12-06T02:43:00.000-08:00

... because two is better than one.

Not-to-be-taken risk

2009-12-06T02:17:00.000-08:00

This morning i woke up late- Service starts at 11am and I woke up at 10.15am.

Seems like I will have sufficient time to prepare, huh? With the Sunday traffic...

I didn't know what to wear... Bad hair day... Stomach ache... (ops...)

So I went out at 11am.

On a usual Sunday, it takes about 20 minutes to reach church, despite my tortoise driving skill.

But... this morning someone buat pandai, took another road instead of the usual one she uses, and took ONE wrong turning, and that's it... I reached church at 11.45am...

This just proves one point-

I should remain a risk-averse person. Period.

Time for Miracles

2009-11-29T06:58:00.000-08:00

It's late at night and I can't sleep, missing you just runs too deep...
Oh I can't breathe thinking of your smile.

Every kiss I can't forget, this aching heart ain't broken yet,
Oh God I wish I could make you see...

Cuz I know this flame isn't dying, so nothing can stop me from trying...

Baby you know that,
Maybe it's time for miracles, cause I ain't giving up on love.

You know that, maybe it's time for miracles,
Cause I ain't giving up on love- No I ain't giving up on us...

I just wanna be with you cause living is so hard to do,
When all I know is trapped inside your eyes.
The future I cannot forget, this aching heart ain't broken yet,
Oh God I wish I could make you see...
Cuz I know this flame isn't dying, so nothing can stop me from trying.

Baby you know that maybe it's time for miracles,
Cuz I ain't giving up on love...
You know that maybe it's time for miracles,
Cuz I ain't giving up on love... No I ain't giving up on us.

Baby can you feel it?
You know I can hear it,
So can you feel me feel you?
You know it's time....

Baby you know that maybe it's time for miracles,
Cuz I ain't giving up on love.
You know that maybe it's time for miracles,
Cuz I ain't giving up on love.
You know I ain't giving up on us,

You know I ain't giving up on... Oh I ain't giving up on us...

I'm not giving up on us.

The transition...

2009-11-06T01:44:00.000-08:00

It's amazing how a few words can motivate you... merely a few words. I first felt motivated about my current job when my potential direct superior (now my direct superior) told me, "You've got a positive attitude, and I would like to arrange a second interview with you". A sentence which I will never forget, and believe it or not, motivated me for (at least) 4 months.

The first month after I got my job, she sets very high expectation and convinced me that I can do it. Oh yea I did felt pressured, but her motivation kept me going. To cut the story short, she kept motivating and helped me along the way, to achieve something in my career (to be more precise, the beginning of my career). I really thought I'd be pressured giler, but with the motivation and surrounded by very positive colleagues, I felt so blessed and thank Him for this.

Why am I sharing this random story? I'm just feeling thankful and blessed as I was never the favourite girl- I wasn't the teacher's pet, I wasn't a student whom a male teacher would have a crush on (:p), I always had to deal with tough/strict superior (even during internship), and I was always jealous with those who have very loving/penyayang superior. I never had a comfortable life back then- but everything made me a stronger person. I believe and is still believing that everything happens for a reason, and God has made His plan for all of us. I will stay strong (even after getting scolded teruk-ly by an Indian lady), and I shall prove that Chin Mei Lee has the potential to achieve something in life. Yes, I can.

Panic-nya aku

2009-10-18T02:21:00.001-07:00

2 months back I was required to accomplish a task.

Due to time constraint, I completed the task using short cut/dirty trick/curi tulang trick.

This month, I have to continue from what I have done in that particular task.

As expected, I probably have to re-do everything because of my irresponsible attitude.

I should really start fixing this problem. Aih.

For 4 months

2009-10-16T10:10:00.000-07:00

... I've gone MIA. All of the sudden I don't know how to write anymore. But many things are going through my mind lately. Don't even know which one to start with.

Done something silly with someone today. Think "someone" would know what I'm talking about. It was an unforgettable and yet hillarious experience which I think I will never forget. THANKS! :)

Have been mentally exhausted lately, trying to figure out what I have done wrong. I realised I got tired of having to take the initiative to apologise and to find out what the problem is. At the end of the day, it wouldn't last and even if it does, it won't be the same anymore. Despite how much I appreciated (and still appreciate) the friendship, my only hope is to obtain honesty and sincerity. I never stopped hoping and waiting for someone to answer my unanswered questions- I guess I'm beginning to give up. A friendship is extremely fragile, that's all I can say...

I've been doing many things which are not supposed to be done... Sometimes it's weird knowing what you are doing at that very moment is wrong, and will definitely hurt one party, and yet you still do it. It's like sin to the power of two. Should you listen to your heart, or your mind? If you listen to your mind, you'll be stuck in your current situation forever; and you listen to your heart, the consequences might be unbearable. I constantly remind myself to do the right thing, and yet it seems like the most difficult thing in the world to do. I hate myself for being so irrational and inconsiderate, I really do. I'm stuck here, with no where to go, no sense of direction, and hurting others... and probably myself in the end.

I can proudly announce that

2009-06-25T10:33:00.000-07:00

I hate people who is fucking busybody.

seriously

2009-05-23T07:52:00.001-07:00

what is the point of being friends now, knowing that there is a possibility of not talking to each other one day?

what is the point of caring about your family so much when they are not doing the same?

what is the point of trying so hard to drive carefully, and still could not avoid accidents?

what is the point of trying to lie to your relatives about whether you are going travelling or not?

what is the point of waiting when there are so much pain, patience and tears involved?

what is the point of trying to be nice to everyone when they don't appreciate what you're doing?

what is the point of trying your best in everything you do, but still don't managed to achieve what you want?

what's the point?
tell me, what is the point?

it's just pointless.

"graveyard" day

2009-05-18T06:03:00.000-07:00

Going to the workshop to visit WaQoaL feels like going to the graveyard.
I felt like crying, felt like touching it and wanted it to come back so badly.

Almost wanted to buy flowers and buah-buahan.

Waaaaa...~

Wa ai WaQoaL. Bu yao li kai wo.

chinmeilee is taking up a 4-day part-time job next week. she's happy. she feels so productive (finally). =D

she's also going cameron with the girls. happiness increased.

Crazy weather

2009-05-14T01:05:00.000-07:00

The weather is crazy.

The workshop fella (a.k.a. Mr TL) is also crazy.

I'm in a terrible mood today.
I don't like browsing through Jobstreet everyday.
I don't like having headache due to the horrible weather.
I dislike the feeling of wanting to travel to get rid of this hot weather, knowing that i have (budget) constraints.
I dislike having to browse through boring websites in order to know what to answer during interviews.
I hate looking for transport to go for interview.
I dislike thinking of what to wear for interview.
I dislike having to call Mr TL everyday to find out how my WaQoaL is doing.
I don't like thinking of where and who I will be in 3 months time.

and I hate spending my last holiday alone.

Finale

2009-05-03T21:47:00.000-07:00

Today is Monday, 4th May 2009.

Hahahahahahah!

Which is also the last day I'll be blogging using a "student" status, talking about how boring exam is, how lazy I feel and all the nonsense. Last paper tomorrow- International Finance. And my revision progress is only about 40%- which means I'm supposed to be crying in front of my table/studying really hard.

But COME ON!! It's the last paper and I don't have the mood to study at all. Kept thinking about what to do after the paper, where to go etc etc...

Gosh, suddenly very takut already. My future depends on this paper. (hyperbole)

Dear Hot

2009-03-12T09:42:00.000-07:00

You said you needed some entertainment during work?

A-ha, these are specially for you! :)

EntertainED ? =D

Internet banking and I

2009-02-19T04:29:00.000-08:00

OK, some of you might think that I am such a 'jakun'.

I just have to admit that I was not 'financially educated', i.e. do not know anything about financial planning etc!

Just learnt about internet banking and stuff like that in... erm, November 2008?

Despite what people might have said about the convenience of internet banking etc...

I just have to say that it causes my account balance to decrease to a state where... argh, just like Gaza.

don't understand?
don't ask meeee! :p

2009-02-14T09:34:00.000-08:00

Have you every felt that you're already at the lowest point of your life, although you've just turned 22? Having the feeling that you're capable in doing nothing, you've got no brain, no beauty, no boobs, no bum... Feeling emotional and depressed all the time, PMS-ing 24/7 (P= both Pre and Post, maybe D also- During) Knowing that you need to seek treatment from a psychiatrist, getting all the "Anti-Depression" pills, feeling like staying away from everyone... It's quite easy to feel this way, especially if your life revolves around the same thing, i.e. study, work, study and work... You won't even feel like meeting your friends cause you'll be so embarassed of yourself, knowing that comes out from your mouth does not make sense 'cause you have no brain, don't want to buy new clothes 'cause you know you won't look nice in it, not having the courage to try new things cause you're too afraid to fail again... It's easy to tell others to stay positive, but when it comes to yourself it's totally a different story. Especially with the economic downturn, and you're graduating soon knowing that there'll be a contribution to the percentage of unemployed graduates......

Random...

2009-01-03T20:34:00.000-08:00

SIGH...

It has been such a long time. I've abandoned my boring blog because my life is too boring to be "blogged". HAHHAHAHAHAHa... *lame*

IT'S NEW SEMESTER ALREADY!!! - which is my final semester (if no retake of courses is required). Feeling a little funny- lazy, excited etc etc. I guess no one will read this post anyway, since this blog have been abandoned for quite some time. So let me just crap something here, hee hee!

Ask me about my holiday?
Hmmmm...
This is a holiday with the most ups and downs. I think I kinda lost something very important during the holidays, to be more specific, towards the end of my holiday. Well, my mistake again. I'm not doing anything about it, just don't have the courage. Hmmm... Better not elaborate more on this issue.

Not feeling well today- Sorethroat, cough, flu etc... So far lectures have not been interesting this semester, have not met any good lecturers, stupid UM system driving me crazy, blur admin staff driving me nuts too...

Guess I will not be updating this very often too. Oh, let me wish these people:

GAN LI !!! GGL for internship!
MKP !!! Add oil for finals!
CML !!! Start shopping for CNY already! Haa Haa !!

That's all for now. Take care everyone. :)

Hmm...

2008-12-11T10:30:00.001-08:00

I really don't understand people.

They're such complicated creatures.

Not only female, but male too.

(As though I'm not a human)

Sigh.

Today is a GOOD day

2008-12-10T08:45:00.000-08:00

1. I've received a phone call.
2. I've received a good news.
3. One of my dreams will come true tomorrow.
4. Bus came on time.
5. Traffic was smooth.

Thank You.

A lovely moment

2008-12-09T08:43:00.000-08:00

Such a lovely picture...

A picture of my mum and my niece.

I can imagine her taking care of her grandchildren (a.k.a. my children) in the future.

KekekekkKEKekakaKeka... *Wicked laugh*

This sem break...

2008-11-30T18:13:00.000-08:00

I will:

1. Tidy up my room.
2. Get a hair-do.
3. Learn to drive with my shoes on.
4. Go shopping!
5. Work more =(
6. Yam cha more often.
7. Go at least one place for vacation.
8. Eat more.
9. Watch movie.
10. Learn how to cook. At least goreng telur.
11. Finish reading my story bookssssss.
12. Learn reverse parking, maybe.
13. Kacau more people/ kacau people more.

etc etc...

Will update, I hope.
Let me finish those first.

Canggihness

2008-11-30T08:36:00.000-08:00

Didn't know UM is so canggih O.o"'

Exam results are out.
What should I do?

No title again

2008-11-23T22:01:00.000-08:00

I'm in the process of clearing my inbox.
Gosh, so many mails!

Was deleting lots of mail, and all the memories kept coming back.
Some are good memories, some are really bad memories.

Anyway, glad it's all over! :)
I think I've handled (some of) them quite well.
Well, at least that's what I think *Wink*

I just realised my blog needs a makeover.
Hmmm..

And guess what?
Orang Gua is on Facebook!

And I don't really like it.
Cause I don't know how to use it, at all!

I'm feeling so down today.
Sigh, and I'm so bored...

Sigh, sigh, sigh...

Guess you'll see lots of updates in my blog,
complaining about how bored I am.

=(

2008-11-23T19:46:00.000-08:00

I...

they...

...airport...

then...

I...

SIGHHH

Public transport? NOoo..

2008-11-20T23:20:00.000-08:00

Last Wednesday, I wanted to take a bus to KLCC around 4.30 pm.

After waiting for half an hour, the bus were still not there.

In the end, I've decided to walk back home, took my car and drive to KLCC.

I truly wonder whether RM 35 billion allocated in Budget 2009 for the improvement of public transportation system will be useful.

Hmmm...

2008-11-20T02:25:00.000-08:00

Looking at those pictures,

I feel like I don't belong.

Maybe it's my own mistake afterall.

Hari Keretaku

2008-11-18T00:38:00.000-08:00

(Due to feedback received from my previous post in Bahasa, I've decided to have another post in Bahasa to show the hebat-ness of UM student ! =p)

EXAM SUDAH BERAKHIR !!!

Hari ini merupakan hari pertama saya memperoleh kebebasan. Maka, saya bertekad untuk "pamper" kereta Savvyku yang sudah lama terbiar. Badannya kotor seperti kerbau yang tidak mandi 10 hari. (Since when kerbau mandi...)

Pada pagi yang sejuk ini, saya bangun lambat kira-kira pukul 11.30 pagi dan mengalami pagi yang tidak lancar, kerana Maxis telah menamatkan perkhidmatan telefom bimbit saya =( Setelah menyelesaikan pertikaian antara saya dan Maxis, saya membuat keputusan untuk menghantar kereta untuk dibaiki.

Sebaik sahaja sampai di Pusat Servis Proton, saya diberitahu yang proses pembaikian mengambil masa yang lama. Oleh itu, saya terpaksa kembali pada keesokan hari. Saya suka menjadi perempuan, kerana uncle-uncle di pusat service akan melayan saya dengan baik. kakaKaKeKAKka! Saya berbual dengan seorang uncle untuk seketika sebelum saya balik. Wah, saya rasa loved di service centre pada hari ini. ahahahaha !

Selepas itu, saya menghantar kereta saya untuk dicuci.

Bos: Aik, sudah lama talak cuci? Kerjakah?

Cantik: Takde lah, belajar hehe. Berapa ya? Sudah lupa lah, lama talak cuci :p

Dan saya memang tidak faham kenapa semua orang ingat saya sudah bekerja. Malah uncle di service centre juga bertanya kenapa saya tidak berkerja hari ini. Hmmm.. Betulkah saya nampak tua? Itu satu persoalan serius yang perlu dicari penyelesaiannya. *Advertisement*

Wah, Savvyku nampak segak dan bergaya selepas dicuci. Tetapi dia masih nampak hitam, kerana ia memang berwarna hitam, wahahahahhahaha !!!

Dalam perjalanan pulang ke rumah-manis-rumahku (direct translation), saya mempunyai fikiran untuk pergi shopping. Ah, mungkin saya akan pergi hari lain. Namun begitu, fikiran saya terpaksa dibatalkan kerana horoscope saya hari ini:

You need to think about your finances and how you can still have money in the bank at the end of the day.

Adui... Betapa benarnya kenyataan ini. Sudah lama diri ini menganggur. Tibalah masanya untuk menyumbang kepada peratusan gunatenaga Malaysia. hahhahahahaha... =)

Important notice

2008-11-15T20:18:00.000-08:00

I AM STARVING!!!

I want FOOD !!!

=(

Keresahan

2008-11-14T07:26:00.000-08:00

Saya ada satu paper pukul 3 petang esok.
Sekarang sudah pukul 11.27 malam.
Apa yang tengah saya fikirkan, update blog pada masa genting seperti sekarang.
Ada sesuatu yang menghalang saya dari menumpukan perhatian.
Boleh sesiapa beritahu saya apa yang sedang mengganggu konsentrasi saya ???
*Mengeluh*
Kehidupan, sememangnya rumit...
Tahap kerumitan yang tidak dapat dijelaskan...
Pemikiran perempuan?
Lebih rumit dari kehidupan...

*Mengeluh lagi*

2008-11-10T04:32:00.000-08:00

***

I know you're getting bored...

Sigh, men.........

***

:)

2008-11-06T09:13:00.000-08:00

YES, WE CAN !!!

CML's level of craziness:

2008-11-02T20:27:00.000-08:00

ml = f(t, s, p, c)

where,

t - time of studying
s - sleep
p - period pain
c - communication

Level of craziness will increase as:
- time of studying, t increases
- sleep, s decreases
- level of p. pain, p increases
- communication, c decreases

Too much of Macroeconomics, sigh...

***

I had a dream.
Of this movie trailer.
Which is not produced... yet.

A-Ha !
Wait for MY movie.

A Chin Mei Lee Production.

Whoaaa...
Movie Director is my future career :)

...2.5 more days

2008-11-02T06:15:00.000-08:00

I think the best way to hide one's stupidity would be - DON'T TALK.

I was talking to a friend on the way to Taiping.

ML : Oh, so how's Phoebe now?

WL : She's working in the Bank of Tokyo!

ML : *Impressed* (Cause I thought it's the one in Japan) Wow, that's so hebat... When she comes back sure very glamour addy! :)

WL : Bank of Tokyo... they have a branch in Malaysia lah..

ML : (Usual expression) O.o"'

This is not the first time. It always happens to me. wHyyyyYyyyyy ???!!!

_____________________________________________

There's a flower pot outside my house.

Few weeks ago, there were coins in it.

Few days ago, there was a brand new Maggi Cup (Tom Yam if I'm not mistaken) beside it.

Yesterday, there was a half-eaten Pringles beside it.

Hmmm... I wonder who cintakan saya dalam diam...

Muahahahahhahahaahhahh...~

138th post

2008-11-01T08:26:00.000-07:00

period pain. exam soon. never-ending studying. something's not here. stupid headache. bad hair dayssssss. darker skin. more pimples. sleeping too much. eating maggi too much. blogging too little. stupidity to the max.

.that's chin mei lee.

to you...

2008-10-28T08:13:00.000-07:00

Not sure whether you'll have time (or mood) to read this...

Just to let you know, no matter what all of us will be here to support you.
Please do not hesitate to tell us if you need any help, sincerely...
I really don't what I can do to lessen your pain...
Didn't dare to call, thinking that you might be busy or don't want to talk about it.

Take care, my dear...

*hugs and kisses*

2008-10-16T20:30:00.000-07:00

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gonna be OK

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gonna be OK

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is
I'll be fine without you
Yes I will...

Leona Lewis - Better in Time

2008-10-16T09:03:00.000-07:00

?

I don't know.

I am confused.

just wondering...

2008-10-15T06:03:00.001-07:00

Who am I to you, honestly?

2008-09-30T01:15:00.000-07:00

Even if the sun refuse to shine,

Even if romance ran out of rhyme,

You would still have my heart,

Until the end of time,

You're all I need,

My love, my valentine...

The Story of Mr X and OKU

2008-09-29T05:27:00.001-07:00

" Tickets:
RM 53, RM 64, RM 75, RM 86.
... Reduced rates for OKU cardholders, schools and groups... "

Mr X (name had been changed) went to the counter to buy tickets, and wanted to find out if there are ways to get discount for the tickets.

Mr X: "How do I get the OKU card?"

Cashier: Erm sir... do you know what OKU is?

Mr X: Er... no...

Cashier: OKU are disabled people...

Mr X: Ops...

(-_-)"""

2008-09-28T01:23:00.000-07:00

Dear Powdered Knees,

Don't get too upset ok?
Non-Powdered Knees will always be here for you.
And please don't hate me for posting this.
I didn't write your name and matrics number.

=)

Love, always,
Non-Powdered Knees

Vow

2008-09-27T08:11:00.000-07:00

Thou shall not spend money on apparel for a week.

2008-09-26T21:26:00.000-07:00

I hate you.

my life...

2008-09-25T23:54:00.001-07:00

... is just going to campus, sneak out to MV when I have break, complete assignments, working(itupun sometimes skip), eating and sleeping.

OK-lah, maybe sometimes I do talk to people.

Other than that, I'm a lifeless cum waistless girl.

WAaaaaAAAaaaaaaaAAAaaa...~

and the worse thing is...

I'M NOT EVEN 21 !!!

I need to GET A LIFE !!!!!!!!!

i am a poisoned soul

2008-09-23T01:09:00.000-07:00

I had food poisoning.

Other than really nice friends who sent "Get well soon" messages. I have this unique friend who sent this:

AJ: Dear poisoned soul, i miss your silly presence in faculty.

ML: That's so sweet.. although calling me poisoned soul is not a very nice thing.

AJ: Get well soon k. I miss seeing your big boobs around the faculty.

ML: -_-""

I still love her though *hugs*

some updates

2008-09-19T05:59:00.000-07:00

Mid-term test
Just done with one of my most-feared paper today- Macroeconomics. Glad it's over though it wasn't that good. I've tried my best. Period.

Laptop
After uncountable discussions, debates, researches, negotiations with different people, I've decided not to get a laptop. Well, not actually decided but it's not necessary to get one now. (Some even said it's too late because I only have another 1 semester to go)
But...
My desktop is always infected by virus. Maybe there were too many "prostitutes" (a.k.a. pendrive) inserted into this poor desktop without scanning it. It's so sickening. SICKENING.

People
I used to adore a few person, but... the feeling is not the same anymore... :(

Assignments + StreSS !!!
I have lots of undone assignments, and I'm really, REALLY stressed out !!!
Need to unwind. I want to go clubbing, and get drunk :( And shopping maybe. Oh no, I forgot I'm broke. :( :(

Work
I've been "consistently" skipping work lately. There goes my new year resolution -_-"

Hair
I have the most horrible hair in the world now. No doubt, I can still be in shampoo advertisement. The "Before" girl. The "After" girl would be Lim Yit Yeen/Hoo Yuan Lih/Ong Eu Lin :(
Nevertheless, I'm still trying to make myself feel better by reminding myself that I'm lucky enough at least to have hair. *wink*

This is a miserable post. Sigh.

Dedicated to a friend...

2008-09-13T01:17:00.000-07:00

So who needs a boyfriend anyway?
That's the conclusion I came to today.
It's not so bad being just one
Actually, it can be quite fun.

Hanging out at the mall all day,
Appreciating your friends in a new special way.
Never having to worry about him,
Whether he be Aaron, Chris, Michael or Jim.
Which movie to rent on Saturday night
Is no longer an issue that ends in a fight.

Going where you want, seeing who you please
Even though you miss having someone to tease.
Three-hour phone calls about nothing at all
Become three-hour shopping trips with
Mom at the mall.
You see more of your little sister now, too,
Being surprised at how much she grew.

But please, I ask, don't shed a tear.
I know that your heart must be filled with fear.
Being alone can be rough at first
But it only gets better, it doesn't get worse.
Soon enough you'll love once more
But for now, it's yourself you should adore.
Look at every day with a new brighter light
And I'm sure, like me, in time you'll be all right...

"Who Needs a Boyfriend Anyway?"
Shelby Woodard

What is Chin Mei Lee ?

2008-09-13T01:03:00.000-07:00

C - Careless
H - Hantu-like
I - Independent... not
N - Naive... (maybe not also)

M - MaLaS !
E - Efficient... not!
I - Inner beauty... none!

L - Lazy (same lah with Malas...)
E - Easily angry (*_*)
E - Easily crying (-_-)"

I love these people

2008-09-12T00:43:00.000-07:00

yuan lih
gan li
yeen
caryn
amanda
kit
ai leng
ah yie
chai hoong
yong han
ann jie
eu lin
nina
mun siong
hong koon (???)
pat
kant
pui yi
wei sin
sing loong
william yap wai loon
mum
dad
sis (uek)
bro
michelle
yin kit (hahahah)
mo ka pao
my pui tu
kien boon
ms teoh
hui chien
pei gie
sok fon
pui mei

and those of you who know that I do, but my forgetfulness stopped me from mentioning your name :)

ops, and okh

No pain, no gain. What if the gain does not worth the pain?

2008-09-10T06:28:00.000-07:00

A friend asked, "So, did you learn anything from your co-curriculum course?"

She answered, "Hmm well, I guess I've learnt something..."

The answer was not complete.

She gained a little, and lost something precious.

i...

2008-09-06T11:09:00.000-07:00

i was so silly to think that by not being there (physically), means you're not supportive.

i was crazy to think that i can do anything because you'll never leave me.

i was always forgetting about how I was treated like a princess by you, but kept asking for more.

i was silly for being jealous at things i shouldn't be jealous of.

i was stupid to say those hurtful words, and do things which i'm not supposed to...

story of my pants

2008-09-05T06:34:00.000-07:00

I know I've been repeating this 764 times.

But I insist of repeating.

I was scolded by the person who jagas the computer lab because I was wearing my black, knee-length capri pants.

The reason?

Not because the length of the pants is above my knee.
(apparently they don't allow above knee-length bottoms, in the computer lab)

Still want to know the reason?

The pants covered my knee, but when I sat down, my knees can be seen.

"Habis tuh, you expect me to bring two pants, and change everytime I stand up and I sit down is it?!"

"This is the dress code in UM, if you're not satisfied, you can talk to the Dean!"

$*$*!&#*$#(^$)@?:!^$@?$?

I HATE HIM !!!!!!!!!!!!

emo moment

2008-09-03T09:19:00.000-07:00

I think one of the most fragile thing in life is friendship.

After being a human being for erm, almost 21 years, I had uncountable friendships- they were good in the beginning, then mati at the end. It's just so fragile.

At this age now, I realised true friends are really, really hard to find.
The only thing I can do is to cherish every single friendship I have, because I always believe friends will be there for you, no matter what happens and who left you...

My friends grew up with me, guided me when I was lost and in deep sh*t, willing to listen to my lame jokes (including looking at this lame blog), forced to shop with me and talk to me although they are tired, see me crying all the time, irritated by my voice etc etc- and in the end still accept me for who I am.

I love you all, and you know who you are : )

sometimes...

2008-08-27T10:29:00.000-07:00

i wonder why is the world so unfair.

cars cutting the queue, they get to pass the traffic light.
you pulak have to wait for the next turn.

you give way to other cars, cars behind you honk.

etc etc etc...

lastly,

you tell/help/inform/remind your friends what you want as your birthday present, so that they don't have to crack their heads thinking about it, they ignore you. (ahem ahem)

HAHAHAHAHAHA !!!

finally...

2008-08-20T09:30:00.000-07:00

my computer is back! : )

but it is suffering from a memory lost.
it doesn't remember me, or anything to do with me at all.

but it's OK! it's much faster now.

i must give credit to the boy.
aishiteru !!! <3

aishiteru Ipoh too!!! i am coming to you tomorrow !!!

and dear Yuan Lih,
to match your lameness, I also have a joke ciplak-ed from someone that i REMEMBER.
hahahahah...

(how can you be lame, it's not even your blog's title)

A teacher asked her student, "What are your parents' names?"
The student answered, "My father's name is Happy, my mother's name is Smile."
Teacher was shocked, "Oh, you must be joking!"
Student answered, "No, Joking is my sister, I am Kidding."

Lame enough?

disappointed, yet proud

2008-08-17T21:42:00.000-07:00

aduiiii...

I must say how disappointed I felt after yesterday's Men Singles.
I am not a watching-sports person, I don't even know the basic rules in badminton.
But I'm sure we all know the pressure Chong Wei had to face (wah call his name like he's my best friend), and the pressure has definitely affected his performance in the game last night.

Eh, ingat aku ni commentator ke... Perasan punya ML...

Anyway, good job to you Chong Wei! (how I wish he's really my friend)

RM 1 million gone... aiks

dear Ann Jie

2008-08-09T01:11:00.000-07:00

I think you look beautiful in this picture.

Don't know why-leh~

= D

i feel old

2008-08-08T02:36:00.000-07:00

I have not been updating my blog, too (dedicated to Gan Li)

My only reason is that I have been super lazy.

Hee hee!

Just in case you forget, I am already in my 3rd year. 1 more year to go.

I am trying to enjoy the last year of my university life, as much as I can. Previously, I've always wondered why some seniors kept telling me university life is the best stage in one's life.

Maybe it's a little too late, but I begin to enjoy it now : )

Dear You...

2008-07-19T09:48:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, don't you think it is better if there is no commitment...?

RecOrd

2008-07-18T06:02:00.000-07:00

I want to nominate myself to be in the Guinness World Records.

"The First Girl to Spoil Two Eyelash Curler in 2 Minutes"

Hah !

I finally did something to make the world remember me, Chin Mei Lee a/p Chin Jun Hon !

I'm so proud for having eyelashes made of steel now =D

Pahala Pahala...

2008-07-18T00:32:00.000-07:00

Refer to my previous post: Dated July 2nd, Wednesday

Maybe it's my pahala for missing VI,

I actually meet Ms. Teoh, my Economics teacher back in Form 6 in Mid Valley today!

For those of you who do not know, she's the reason why I ended up doing Economics now : )

And for those of you who are interested to know more, she has a baby now!!! Her name is Ai Qian, and she's 11-month-old! She's very naughty, but at the same time adorable, just like meeeeee...

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA !!!

kill me, kill meeeeeeeeee ~

2008-07-02T06:36:00.001-07:00

i can't believe...

i really can't believe it...

i'm actually...

i'm actually missing a place called

Victoria Institution.

2008-06-17T05:40:00.001-07:00

I did something crazy last Saturday...

I don't think I need to blog about it, I'm pretty sure some will post pictures up! o.O

Few hours before the "crazy event", I was told by someone about what someone did/say/wrote.

I was pretty disturbed.

Just don't understand why it has to be this way. Well, throughout the whole event I tried to be nice and all. And thank God I can actually forget about it.

...

...... until an hour ago.

I DON'T UNDERSTAND WOR !!!

sigh, I also don't know what am I supposed to say.

hmph !

anyway, I know I said nothing should be posted.

But as Gan Li said, sneak preview :)

1...

2...

3...

4...

5...

6...

9...

78...

post 105

2008-06-09T19:00:00.000-07:00

i must be crazy.

faced the pc for 9 hours today, and still facing it now -_-"

today is the time-of-the-semester again, where registration of subjects took place. who says studying in local university is good (because the fees cheaper mah) will get tumbukan from me.

every semester we got to "fight" to get papers we want...
(which means i have to do this for 6 semesters, provided i don't have to extend)

we need to spend 2 years to sit for STPM..

AND get "extra" good results in STPM to get the course you want in university...

sigh, just because of the fees. there's a price to pay for "low fees", my friend.

when yeen and i were in the lift after work today, this random woman came into the lift and said
"wow, look so casual!"

ok, no hard feelings, but i don't think it's a nice thing to say to a stranger- loh!

and yeen answered "oh, we're only interns."

random woman said "oh, i see", and went out just like that.

what, discriminating interns? you've never been an intern before you get this OLD ?

haiyer...
mei lee is in a bad mood today.
should stop blogging.

arghhhhh, another presentation tomorrowwwww

after such a long time...

2008-06-08T01:20:00.000-07:00

i deserve to be forgotten...

but why is it still bothering me?

2008-05-10T22:00:00.000-07:00

I think this blog will be deleted soon.

finally...

2008-05-02T21:00:00.000-07:00

IT has ended...

IT = Finals + ???

Today is the second day of my post-exam "celebration". It was the longest 3 weeks for me- a week of study week, and 2 weeks of exam. Somehow this exam seem longer than previous exams. I've been neglecting everything, everyone around me throughout this busy 3 weeks. Fine, blame it on my inability to balance up everything (again). =(

Uncountable things happened before, during and after the exam. This time, it's not only about exam. I'm tested on my ability to concentrate and put everything aside. I know, life is not just about exam. I can't believe I'm giving so much priority to memorize stuff, and vomit out in the exam hall. (I think the exam hall flooded with students' puke). I've been neglecting my friends, family, work and something else in these short-yet-super long 3 weeks. But it is such a relief that I can tell myself , I've done my best, no matter what the outcome is. =)

I might want to bore you people with something happened before my papers. =p

2 days before my first paper, I received a SMS stating that the examination building caught fire, and there will be changes in the exam schedule. Being the lazy Mei Lee who hasn't started studying at that time, I was overexcited about that- But I was thinking, quite fake loh. On the other hand, I wanted to thank, kiss and hug those people who caused the fire (Although until now I still don't know the cause) hehehehhehe~
But it's true, the examination hall really caught fire. The best part is the dates of exam remain UNCHANGED, only venues are changed =( Syok for nothing~

(so random)

Anyway, will be starting my industrial training next Monday. Yes, exam ended on Wednesday, and I will begin working on the next Monday !!! Grrr...
A lil' nervous to face a new environment, meet new people but at the same time quite excited about it =) Wish me luck, ok? Thank you thank youuuuu !

my 101th post

2008-04-14T12:00:00.000-07:00

" ... just promise me one thing, that you'll put everything aside and do your best in the finals."

I thank You, for sending a messenger to tell me Your words. Because of You, I will do my best.

a night to remember

2008-04-11T22:10:00.000-07:00

Good news: Yesterday was the end of my 2nd year lecture.

Bad news: Finals in one week time *sweat*

...

We went "celebrating" the last day of being "youngsters" (second year student) by eating out, and clubbing. The initial plan was to stay over at a friend's house only, without the clubbing part, hehe! Anyway, yesterday was one of my most memorable clubbing experience (not that I often go clubbing, hehe!). Would like to thank the girls for giving me such a wonderful night :) Am still having headache due to the drinks, therefore here I am skipping work! '_'

...

I've been trying hard to keep myself busy (more to I don't have a choice). This sem was really a hectic one, with uncountable assignments and discussions. I'm glad it's over. Really, really glad =D

...

It has been a week, and I'm still waiting for something to happen. Everytime I log in to Friendster, my only hope is to be able to see "New Messages". I guess I was expecting too much, and as usual feeling disappointed is what I get, to the point that I'm immuned to this "disapponted" feeling.

...

I guess I really have to start studying, not much time left. Oh what an emo night.

report

2008-03-27T23:20:00.000-07:00

Yesterday is a day which I call a "Up-and-down" day.

The reason? Many bad things and good things happened on the same day.

Let's start with good things first!

Good things

I found out that a lecturer of mine is an ex-BBGSian. Her first reaction when she knew we were from BBGS was - "How could you???" (which sounded like I did something wrong, but it was kinda funny to look at her suprised face)

Anyway she sent us a link, especially for ex-BBGSians you girls can have a look :)
(non BBGSian also can see lar of course...)

http://www.agc.gov.my/agc/oth/listTLawbi_2.htm

I went to watch "Entangled- The Musical" organised by PKVUM (Persaudaraan Kristian Varsiti Universiti Malaya). Had a good time :)
I had Teppanyaki! :)
Best thing of the day- A friend of mine told me "Mei Lee, I'm so glad to have you as my friend". You cannot imagine how I felt- a simple sentence but... it was sweeeeeettt :)

jeng jeng jeng... Here comes the worse part-

Bad Things

I had a horrible morning driving to university yesterday. Just don't know why everything seemed wrong on the road yesterday (OK, some might say the problem is with my driving skill... O.o")
My house had no water supply -_-"
The boy was too busy to talk to me/listen to my problems.
Last but not least, main issue of the day- I failed one of my mid-term test. Well, it's kind of an expected one but it felt totally different when it happens. I wanted to just cry and feel good about it after that, unfortunately I didn't find any chance to tell anyone. I chose to sleep, with hope I can forget it- unfortunately I'm still disappointed about it now. So much effort, so many sleepless night...

sigh

2008-03-26T00:25:00.000-07:00

treat someone good...

THIS IS YOUR ENDING !!!

formal letter

2008-03-24T20:00:00.000-07:00

Chin Mei Lee
44, Jalan Sorry,
Taman Maaf,
88888 Kuala Memaafkan.
_______________________________________________

Hoo Yuan Lih @ Wendy @ Boo Hoo,
41, Jalan Tai Yan Yau Tai Leong,
Taman Orang Baik,
88888 Kuala Orang Cantik.

Madam,

A Stupid SMS. (What a terrible subject...)

With reference to the above matter, I would like to apologize for being rude in the previous SMS sent by me last night regarding a visit to Ms. Ai Leng's house.

I don't know whether you are angry or it is just because you were busy, you sounded... erm a bit angry/unhappy/not very pleased.

Please be reminded that my reply stating that you are not coming because you "don't want" to, is totally unintentional and it was just a joke!

With this, I attached an evidence of our 8-years friendship, with hope that your hati become lembut after reading this...

I am looking forward to your reply (hopefully it's not a bad one). If there is any enquiry, please do not hesitate to contact me at xxx - xxxxxxx. Your cooperation is much appreciated.

Yours truly,

* official signature *

(CHIN MEI LEE)
... yang comel.

_________________________________________________
Attachment:

- 8-years friendship evidence -

baby love

2008-03-23T01:00:00.000-07:00

you are my baby love,

my baby love,

you make the sun come,

oh boy...

you're everything that I could ever dream of...

maaf zahir dan batin

2008-03-21T18:50:00.000-07:00

I've got new thing to post!

*walk here... walk there..
do this... do that...*

and then forgets -_-"'

main reason why I'm not updating my lame blog.

S O R R Y !!!........................................................... naik lorry

fun post!

2008-03-08T18:00:00.000-08:00

I need you boo,
I gotta see you boo, (really??)
And the hearts all over the world tonight,
Said the hearts all over the world tonight

I need you boo, (ooh)
I gotta see you boo (hey)
And the hearts all over the world tonight,
Said the hearts all over the world tonight

Hey! Little mama,
Ooh, you a stunna
Hot..lil figure,
Yes, you a winner, (no I'm a loser :( )
And I'm so glad to be yours,
You're a class of your own,
And.. Ooh, little cutie (I know I'm cute :P)
When..you talk to me I swear..the whole world stops (how can the whole world stop?)
You're..my sweetheart
And I'm so glad that you're mine
You are one of a kind and..

You mean to me
What I mean to you and..
Together baby,
There is nothing we won't do, (I don't think I'll rob a bank with you...)
Cuz if I got you
I don't need money,
I don't need cars,
Girl, you're my all.
And..

Oh! I'm into you,
And girl,
No..one else would do,
Cuz with every kiss and every hug,
You make me fall in love,
And now I..know I can't be the only one,
I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight,
With the love of their life who feel..
Wat I feel when I'm With you

Girl.. With you

Oh Girl!
I don't want nobody else,
Without you, there's no one left then,
You're like Jordans on Saturday, (I am still Mei Lee!)
I gotta have you and I cannot wait now,
Hey! little shorty,
Say..you care for me, (I will care for you...)

You know..I care for you,
You know...that I'll be true,
You know..that I won't lie, (... u sure...)
You know..that I would try,
To be your everything..yeah..

Cuz if I got you,
I don't need money, (how can u pak toh without money?)
I don't need cars,
Girl, you're my all. And yeah..

Oh! I'm into you,
And girl,
No..one else would do,
Cuz with every kiss and every hug,
You make me fall in love,
And now I..know I can't be the only one,
I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight,
With the love of their life who feel..
Wat I feel when I'm

With you

Ohh.. With you

Yeah Heh..

And I..
Will never try to deny,
That you were my whole life,
Cuz if you ever let me go, I would die..
So I won't front,
I don't need another woman,
I just need your all and nothing,
Cos' if I got that,
Then I'll be straight
Baby, you're the best part of my day... (not when I'm angry, right?)

I need you boo, I gotta see you boo
And the hearts all over the world tonight,
Said the hearts all over the world tonight
Woo Ooohh..
Yeah~
They need it boo,
They gotta see their boo,
Said the hearts all over the world tonight,
Hearts all over the world tonight

Oh! I'm into you, And girl,
No..one else would do,
Cuz with every kiss and every hug,
You make me fall in love,
And now I..know I can't be the only one,
I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight,
With the love of their life who feel..
Wat I feel when I'm With you

Girl.. With you
Ohh.. With you
With you..only with you
With you
hey yeah...

Chris Brown- With You

I can't believe he's dating Rihanna !!!!

Lucky him! (or lucky Rihanna) :*(

Pease don't scold me for "polluting" the lyrics, just for fun, HEHE !

dear ultraman...

2008-02-26T10:00:00.000-08:00

many things happened today...

Today, I encounter a monster whom uses her power to make me feel erm... intimidated. Not physically of course. Ultraman, I really do understand some people are born with the leadership skill, ability to handle things... but this wasn't her thing. Perhaps I don't like to feel ignored, or hate when somebody take something away from me- that is why I'm feeling "attacked" by this monster.

Dear Ultraman,

It has been 20 months since we started fighting against monsters together. We've been through uncountable ups and downs. Today is the day which mean a lot to us, and I've made preparation to celebrate our victory, but... it seems like your red light is blinking again. I can't help but to feel worried, at the same time I can't deny that I'm a little disappointed. Maybe it's just like what people say, the higher your expectation, the more disappointed you'll be. I guess I just have to learn to accept :( Get well soon ultraman, there are still many monsters out there...

Yours truly,

Ultragirl.

p/s: erm...

Can you please destroy the monster for me?? At least throw her out from this planet :)

2008-02-24T23:00:00.000-08:00

am still waiting...

and waiting...

but yet, there's nothing...

my spirit is like...

2008-02-17T21:00:00.000-08:00

a dead rose.

useless,
pretentious,
not capable of anything,
cry over everything,
good in nothing,
don't deserve anyone,
useless,
useless again,
and useless also...

shoutout

2008-02-16T23:45:00.000-08:00

I want to be taken seriously...

seriously.

a piece of advice

2008-02-15T22:00:00.000-08:00

when you have children in the future,

please encourage them to start reading English books from young,

it's very kesian-fying to have a very poor command in English...

sigh.

pre-CNY

2008-02-06T01:50:00.000-08:00

... It's torturing having to prepare for presentation when CNY is just around the corner!!! o.O

a notice

2008-02-05T21:00:00.000-08:00

I think I need to announce something important...

CHIN MEI LEE IS STILL ALIVE !!!

hahahahahahhhha... just trying to make a lame joke
(suits the name of my blog mar)

am going to Bank Negara, soon! hehehehe :)

is my singing that bad... ?

2008-01-28T21:00:00.000-08:00

*phone rings*

ml : hello!

cat : hey, where are you now?

ml : I'm still in uni, got concert going on...

cat : huh? (sounded worried) so late still got concert?

ml : yalor, call you back later k? byeee~

after an hour...

*ml calls back*

cat : eh I was so worried you know...
(ml thought he's worried of her 'cause she's not at home at night)

I was worried that you were part of the concert; and you were singing....poor crowd... *giggles*

OK, if you're not laughing, it's a joke/ insult.

LAUGH people, LAUGHHHHHHH .... !!!

want a (presentable) crown

2008-01-27T20:28:00.000-08:00

Sunsilk @ Pantene @ Rejoice says:

" Rambut itu mahkota wanita "

.... what happened to my mahkota then ....?

2008-01-23T13:21:00.000-08:00

it's funny why we can't get along (well) with certain people, no matter how often we see them.

:(

but it's wonderful why we can get along well with some people, no matter how seldom we see them...

:)

what's my point...?

o.O"'

sometimes I just wanna keep quiet (as what they want, perhaps).

=:::(

leave me

2008-01-20T03:16:00.000-08:00

human tend to neglect things, and even people around them, when they are (still) around.

and we only begin to realise the importance of having them around,

when we know that...

they are going to leave us.

it's about you, again

2008-01-18T23:00:00.000-08:00

the big rounded eyes,

the nose,

the wide forehead,

and most importantly-

the smile...

reminds me of you...

...why are you still on my mind?

dedicated to . . .

2008-01-14T21:00:00.000-08:00

NINE and QUE !!! :-)

first of all...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to NINA !!! :)

she's sitting at the most left :)

for your information, she's one of the most beautiful Indian friend I've ever had, seriously! (not trying to bodek ar...)

on the very same day, I went to watch my ex-room mate dance (Que)...

I just wish to let you know that I'm super proud of you (never thought you can dance so well, kekekekekekekkee!), although the team didn't emerge as champion, but you've done your very best!

Fatimah and Panda is proud of you ! :)

weirdo speaking

2008-01-13T00:16:00.000-08:00

I believe different people have different ways of expressing their feelings.

But isn't it weird when you choose not to talk to a person, when you're actually more worried about his condition more than you're worried of yourself?

I think a normal person would choose to care, and show it through their words and actions- definitely not by ignoring that someone whom is obviously very important to them.

The feeling is like, mixture of all sorts of negative feelings, but somehow it's all hidden in the heart. or perhaps I choose to hide and make myself suffer.

I can't help but feeling that...

I'm such a weirdo.