A new life

Today, I took the first step.


Wore the usual mask, greeted everyone in the room.


Left my mask outside the room, and cried out loud.


New resolution.


New desire.


Peace of mind.


No worries, leave everything to Him.


A first step to a long journey.


I will continue.

don't ask me why...

Home Alone- Christmas Special

It has been such a long time since I've last celebrated Christmas... alone.
I think it has been at least 6 years.
To be more exact, I did not celebrate Christmas at all this year.
Somehow, the feeling is quite different, in the sense that I'm able to avoid the Christmas crowd, paying extra for some not delicious meal, making reservation in advance etc.

Fine, I'm in denial. It's miserable going through Christmas this way.

But I guess, it's a pretty good test for me. At least I managed to do some laundry, manja with mummy, watch some Christmas special TV show. Hahaha...

Made all the arrangements before Christmas- hang out with the girls, BBQ, Christmas musical. In the end, sigh...

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!! Just wanna complain a bit, since everyone is out and I'm home alone. Aih.

... because two is better than one.

Not-to-be-taken risk

This morning i woke up late- Service starts at 11am and I woke up at 10.15am.

Seems like I will have sufficient time to prepare, huh? With the Sunday traffic...

I didn't know what to wear... Bad hair day... Stomach ache... (ops...)

So I went out at 11am.

On a usual Sunday, it takes about 20 minutes to reach church, despite my tortoise driving skill.

But... this morning someone buat pandai, took another road instead of the usual one she uses, and took ONE wrong turning, and that's it... I reached church at 11.45am...



This just proves one point-






I should remain a risk-averse person. Period.

Time for Miracles

It's late at night and I can't sleep, missing you just runs too deep...
Oh I can't breathe thinking of your smile.

Every kiss I can't forget, this aching heart ain't broken yet,
Oh God I wish I could make you see...

Cuz I know this flame isn't dying, so nothing can stop me from trying...

Baby you know that,
Maybe it's time for miracles, cause I ain't giving up on love.

You know that, maybe it's time for miracles,
Cause I ain't giving up on love- No I ain't giving up on us...

I just wanna be with you cause living is so hard to do,
When all I know is trapped inside your eyes.
The future I cannot forget, this aching heart ain't broken yet,
Oh God I wish I could make you see...
Cuz I know this flame isn't dying, so nothing can stop me from trying.

Baby you know that maybe it's time for miracles,
Cuz I ain't giving up on love...
You know that maybe it's time for miracles,
Cuz I ain't giving up on love... No I ain't giving up on us.

Baby can you feel it?
You know I can hear it,
So can you feel me feel you?
You know it's time....

Baby you know that maybe it's time for miracles,
Cuz I ain't giving up on love.
You know that maybe it's time for miracles,
Cuz I ain't giving up on love.
You know I ain't giving up on us,

You know I ain't giving up on... Oh I ain't giving up on us...




I'm not giving up on us.

The transition...

It's amazing how a few words can motivate you... merely a few words. I first felt motivated about my current job when my potential direct superior (now my direct superior) told me, "You've got a positive attitude, and I would like to arrange a second interview with you". A sentence which I will never forget, and believe it or not, motivated me for (at least) 4 months.

The first month after I got my job, she sets very high expectation and convinced me that I can do it. Oh yea I did felt pressured, but her motivation kept me going. To cut the story short, she kept motivating and helped me along the way, to achieve something in my career (to be more precise, the beginning of my career). I really thought I'd be pressured giler, but with the motivation and surrounded by very positive colleagues, I felt so blessed and thank Him for this.

Why am I sharing this random story? I'm just feeling thankful and blessed as I was never the favourite girl- I wasn't the teacher's pet, I wasn't a student whom a male teacher would have a crush on (:p), I always had to deal with tough/strict superior (even during internship), and I was always jealous with those who have very loving/penyayang superior. I never had a comfortable life back then- but everything made me a stronger person. I believe and is still believing that everything happens for a reason, and God has made His plan for all of us. I will stay strong (even after getting scolded teruk-ly by an Indian lady), and I shall prove that Chin Mei Lee has the potential to achieve something in life. Yes, I can.