down to negative

today's not a good day for me.

mixture of feelings, beginning to feel the stress.. don't know who to turn to.

you know what i think is the worst thing one can experience?
some people get very depressed when they found out that somebody dislike them.
i used to have that kind of feeling, cried miserably for few nights back in Form 2, when i found out that one of my classmates dislike me. and after that i realised there's nothing to be depressed about, you can't please everyone, so just do whatever that makes you feel comfortable. but a normal person will feel depressed i guess, so i am actually normally distributed. *wink*

back to my point.
i think the worst thing that can happen to someone, is when they start to dislike herself.

if they don't love themselves for who they are, who will?


many told me i have changed.

changed for better or for worse, i don't know.

i know changes in a person are inevitable; but it becomes a self-conflict when i dislike the new me, and want to be back to the previous me. (although i think both are equally bad person)
and when all these happen, i feel unhappy all the time, and worse still, low self-esteem.
the thing is, i forced myself to turn back into the "old" one, when i am already a "new" person.


silly, huh?