Fugly me

I am pretty sure we all had times when everything that could go wrong, went wrong. Having insomnia lately- which is really not 'my disease' (because I'm truly a pig). A colleague of mine actually started calling me "zombie", ouch...

Work is beginning to suck lately- as much as I tried to stay/pretend positive, I guess there is a limitation somehow... Given a new task is challenging, unfortunately it turns out to be something which I stress about a lot. The new task makes me feel incompetent, inefficient, ineffective, incapable etc etc. Which I think is wrong- given my position as a trainee, to be given an opportunity like this, I am considered lucky. Besides, I am also given the chance to learn from a very experienced senior, which is supposed to be motivating but it turns out to be the opposite... and I have no idea whether it is right to feel this way... Sigh. enough of complaining.

And I dislike one particular colleague! o.O"

And I just realised that putting too much make up on makes u look really, really ugly and scary... :(

And I'm disgusted with myself. Urgh.

Wedding dinner: A cartoon

Someone was extremely bored while waiting for a wedding dinner to start, so he begin texting me...

MMS # 1: "Gift from the hosts..."

MMS # 2: "Gift for my friend and I- combined."

MMS # 3: "Hahah... I guess I'm too free..."

MMS # 4: "New member- Stole another gift from the empty seat beside us."

For some odd reason, I find it adorable. I miss him.

I miss...

Truthfully, I miss my unscarred leg. It has been a month, and the scar is still visible. Some might tell me that it is not visible (which I know is untrue), but I still need some time to accept a new "tattoo" on my leg. Sigh. I never knew how much this will impact me. I thought I'll be OK with it but somehow, it lowers my self-esteem. Hate to admit something my colleague once told me- "For a girl to have a scar on your leg... It must have impacted you a lot, right?"

OK, don't get me wrong. I don't mean to blame anyone, I understand it's merely an accident. I just feel like being honest with my own feeling. Acting like you don't give a damn about it when others ask, it ain't easy. But I guess for not, there is nothing I can do besides not giving a damn about what others might think/say, and wear short skirt as usual.



Mei Lee is hot with her scarred leg...... Not.

A new life

Today, I took the first step.


Wore the usual mask, greeted everyone in the room.


Left my mask outside the room, and cried out loud.


New resolution.


New desire.


Peace of mind.


No worries, leave everything to Him.


A first step to a long journey.


I will continue.

don't ask me why...

Home Alone- Christmas Special

It has been such a long time since I've last celebrated Christmas... alone.
I think it has been at least 6 years.
To be more exact, I did not celebrate Christmas at all this year.
Somehow, the feeling is quite different, in the sense that I'm able to avoid the Christmas crowd, paying extra for some not delicious meal, making reservation in advance etc.

Fine, I'm in denial. It's miserable going through Christmas this way.

But I guess, it's a pretty good test for me. At least I managed to do some laundry, manja with mummy, watch some Christmas special TV show. Hahaha...

Made all the arrangements before Christmas- hang out with the girls, BBQ, Christmas musical. In the end, sigh...

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!! Just wanna complain a bit, since everyone is out and I'm home alone. Aih.