hmm...

i am confused.

of what ?

my red hair is turning orange/brown/light red/whatever.

what should i do?

hmmm...

i should be happy about it, since i don't like red.

=D

mou liu dou sei...

journey of life

the other day i was in the bus, all excited to go to Times Square to meet up with Pei Yen and the rest of the gang. before i entered the bus, i have to walk from my house to the bus stop- the part that i hate the most because of the heat, the cars, and some people who have "never" seen girls before, they just can't stop kacau-ing.. (they kacau almost every single girl, to clear the misunderstanding).

this explains why i feel so reluctant to take public transport sometimes...

anyway, once i got into the bus, it feels so comfortable that i forgotten about things i have to go through before entering the bus. it made me realised about something- the journey of life. before achieving something, you have to go through a tough process. it may vary for every single individual- for some people it's an easy one, for some (like me), it's definitely not.

still, i believe God has His reason for every single thing; every cloud has its silver lining. perhaps this is what is arranged for me, to make me a tougher and much stronger person to face challenges in life. i don't deny i do envy some of my friends who have everything they need, as for me i have to work hard even just for some simple things. taking a part-time job while studying might sound simple, in fact there are so many "implicit" sacrifices to make- it takes up your studying time, rest time, and most importantly time to hang out with your own friends.

fortunately, i have very understanding friends who understand my situation, and didn't blame me for not being there. in fact sometimes they arranged things so that i could attend it. thanks girls, so much...

there are times i can't think this positively, you know when things get tougher, i will eventually give up and sometimes, blame my family for not being able to give me the luxuriousness i deserved. it's tough, when everyone around you living a comfortable life, and you're not. in the end, i realised it's useless blaming them, i just have to work hard to get what i want, by myself. i should be thankful for having a place to live, having sufficient food and clothes, even have extra pocket money to spend =)

emo post, again

i can't stand loneliness...

i really can't...

just can't...

i don't know why, and i really wanna change. cause i know i can't expect everyone around me, to be around me for the rest of my life. not anyone at all.

but still, there's this voice shouting inside me. always.
there are many things i should understand, i didn't. it's not that i can't understand, i choose not to understand.

i tried my best to compromise, perhaps there's always a limit...

Y AM I SO UNREASONABLEEEEEEEE !!!!!!!!!

i think i'm going crazy too, like yuan lih. =p (sorry to pull u into the water wendy...)

different individual need different type of partner, no matter how perfect your partner is to u, if he/she is not the type you need, that's it. period.

or maybe, sometimes the problem is with myself. i expect everything to happen in my way. if it doesn't go my way, i get frustrated and let go my anger on my punchbag. poor punchbag. i wonder who in the world can't stand me.... sigh.

no wonder people say hakka mui very garang wan, now i totally 200% believe...

lost lost...

what a "good" title to start a new blog..
(crazy kah, ejek ur own blog)


muahahahahahhaa...~
ladies and gentlemen, welcome to Chin Mei Lee's new blog...
as requested by my peminatsssssss (kekekekkeekkekeke), i've finally decided to fight the lazy worms in me, and create an account in blogspot..

BUT...

i don't really know what to post now.......


hehehehehhehehehehhee...~
i'm still unfamiliar with the functions, i dunno where to click and things like that...
so, gimme some time alright? =)
lagipun, not like u all can read this now...



cause i still haven't tell anyone about this account...
MUAHahhhahhHAHaa..~

so basically, i'm monologing now =p