When a same mistake has been repeated over and over again, you'll reach a point where you don't feel guilty about it anymore. You would not know whether what you're doing is wrong or right (actually you do know it's wrong), and it scares you when you're not feeling guilty about commiting the 'crime'- like how you used to feel.

For you, on Valentine's Day

Here I am playing with those memories again, and just when I thought time had set me free, those thoughts of you keep taunting me.
Holding you, a feeling I never outgrew, though each and every part of me has tried.
Only you can fill that space inside- so there's no sense pretending, my heart it's not mending.

Just when I thought I was over you, and just when I thought I could stand on my own,
Oh, baby those memories come crashing through- and I just can't go on without you.
On my own I've tried to make the best of it alone- I've done everything I can to ease the pain but only you can stop the rain...





I just can't live without you, I miss everything about you...

I hate this part

Do you know someone- whom you know you cannot meet, because once you met him, you just can't stop thinking about him?

I know someone who gives me that kind of feeling. And I hate this feeling.

Fugly me

I am pretty sure we all had times when everything that could go wrong, went wrong. Having insomnia lately- which is really not 'my disease' (because I'm truly a pig). A colleague of mine actually started calling me "zombie", ouch...

Work is beginning to suck lately- as much as I tried to stay/pretend positive, I guess there is a limitation somehow... Given a new task is challenging, unfortunately it turns out to be something which I stress about a lot. The new task makes me feel incompetent, inefficient, ineffective, incapable etc etc. Which I think is wrong- given my position as a trainee, to be given an opportunity like this, I am considered lucky. Besides, I am also given the chance to learn from a very experienced senior, which is supposed to be motivating but it turns out to be the opposite... and I have no idea whether it is right to feel this way... Sigh. enough of complaining.

And I dislike one particular colleague! o.O"

And I just realised that putting too much make up on makes u look really, really ugly and scary... :(

And I'm disgusted with myself. Urgh.